My eyes are tired

This period is the holiday period for many.but to me,it is also a time to study for my examinations.had already did the 20 percent of the exam the other 80 percent,i am still working on it.Now my eyes feels very sore and tired as if it needed lots of rests by looking at the trees.Hopefully the degree do not spiral up again. Commiting the rest to the lord...

"For i know the plans i have for you," declares the lord."plans to prosper you and not to harm you,plans to give you a hope and a purpose."

Jeremiah 29:11

Someone remembered my birthday!

Holiday is always a time when i would be able to meet my beloved friends from my secondary school.This Holiday season was no different.At first i met Eunice,my best friend or sister ,who had been there for me for the past nine years since primary school.It was then followed by meeting Angeline and annajoy to ikea and to meet angeline personally.Meeting eunice was great,we had sushi together and had a great time sharing our experience at work and school.I love catching up with her,because she always understood me or you could say as a confidante.This year,we go through thick and thin together.We take english exams together this year and share personal experience in school and work.we chat on school and questions like "how are you doing now in the new study environment".Well,eunice surprised me completely.She actually gave me an early birthday present of cosmetic products which was very costly and a handmade card.I was overwhelmed with happiness!Really appreciate her for her effort in preparing my gift.Thanks Eunice!

Two days later,i met up with angeline and annajoy.First ,i met up with angeline in the early morning at jurong east interchange.We exchanged hugs and was so happy to see each other.Angeline said that it has been more than half a year before we finally get to meet up.We soon ate ice cream together and wait for anna joy to come.I felt a sense of happiness as when three of us met up,it was as if we were back to our secondary days when we went for recess together and run the race together.At first we had meatballs and salmon.We also went to Anchor point and had a very good tea time together at tcc.the drink that angeline and i had picked was really a very miraculous blend,it was a blend of lychee and coffee.

Of course,meeting angeline individually was a great joy.we planned to give annajoy and tiffany a make over and plan for future meetings together.We even went for the SMURF movie and the movie was great .In the show i admired the father's love for the other smurf the most.He was so noble that he could even give up his life to save his children's life.But fortunately he was saved by others in the end.With angeline,i shop with her many cute little products and met a lot of children by chance.When we were having lunch together,there was a little girl who was having her lunch with her mother.She kept fixing her eyes on angeline and I and smiled on us brightly.Her smiles are like sunshine ,so warm and so pure.Angeline and i was so happy to see her.Even when she accidentally fling her spoon over,we felt that children are so adorable.Also angeline also brought me a good news.she said that a nurse who receive high education could actually teach children of age of two and below.Thus,meeting angel had really brought much joy and laughter.

It was such a good time meeting friends!Indeed friends are the ones who brighten our day,share our joy and bitterness.

By the way, i had also picked up some learning point at my attachment time:
1)To live each day with thanksgiving and praise
2)Do not feel small in everything you do because every little gestures touches the heart of others
3)Smile always because every smile brightens the day of others

Crossing another hurdle

Today is a day of examination again,i guess i need to cross a few more hurdles this month.Well,today marks the first day of a series of exams that is coming my way.though how tired and lethargic i may be,i still met up vivian to do a one to one revision time.we met at school's library in the morning at nine and then studied one last round and tested each other's knowledge with potential exam's question.though we were equally knackered due to a series of test coming our way,i guess that it was all worth it.Thank God for that the exam questions were manageable and we were able to cope as a series of question were revised through earlier.Also,thank God for annajoy.she had been a great and friendly lady who actually prayed for me when i am having my exams.Her encouragement and an sms have given me more strength to do my best.She is always so thoughtful.though she was sick on saturday,she still helped me and encouraged me.I have also learned from her that every small little act of love really brightens other day.Really pray for more strength and courage to go through other consecutive exams tomorrow,wednesday and thursday.Probably after that i will be able to catch a breather and meet up with friends.

How time flies

It is already august 2011 and exams are approaching very quickly.recalling the time when i am still with my secondary school friends,i have to admit,time flies just as fast.it is as fast as when you find close your eyes and find yourself starting a brand you days,facing new challenges and satisfaction every day.Not long later, i will be taking a series of exams,finding myself to be memorising numerous facts and eyes getting sore and tired.But i am thankful to have friends like annajoy and caryn whom i am contacting the most out of my secondary school friends.they have listen to my grumbles and my fears and given me precious advice and encouragements.It is very hard to meet up these days too,probably because we all have different schedules and different commitments in life.I also re-examine myself today whether i am going to continue my studies now till three years later or i am switching course. Well,this has been a burning question from my relatives and friends because they are concern whether i am certain of my choice.However,i could only reply them that till now i do not have the thought of switching course.Actually to review my choice last time that i wanted to focus on chinese now,i am really uncertain of my choice last time.Did i choose chinese only because it was my strength?Or because i really love it?this year,i feel that i am really exposed .Exposed to people of different country,different age group and different experiences in life.Sometimes,in life we learn while exposing to different environment.every day in my life now,i really experience the fact that you reap what you sow,because for biology,i really studied and is really satisfied when the results came out.even just having to give up seats to people who need it more,brings a smile on my face.Is it the power of helping?i don't know.But,edwina is indeed learning more than before and trying hard to excel.Dear lord, please strengthen me as i go through all this challenges and help me make decisions that is according to your will as you are the one who have plans all mapped out for me.

Distinction

"Distinction" was one of my nickname given by my classmates lately,like xinli and dale.when my friends often call me that , i feel irritated and tries to ignore.though i know that they meant no harm and were envious and happy for my results for biology,i still cannot comprehend why they said that.was that because i studied too hard for it?was it because i used to take pure biology and had greater interest on that subject? or plainly,i do not want to fail again and needed the assurance of doing my best in everything so that i have no regrets?i would say that throughout this year,i have learnt to become more reflective in my actions and i chose to concentrate fully on studies .i do not deny that i love the need for perfection or at least putting it my best effort to ensure so,but i personally think that "work hard,play hard and trust in God" was mainly my goals for this year.also,i encourage my friends by telling them that they could also do the same if they are willing to study for it because the lord will reward those who puts in adequate amount of hardwork.And all we have to do is do our best and cast the rest of our worries to God.anyway,in life it is definitely times that we are climbling uphill and we feel complacent and lethargic to finish climbing to the peak of the mountain.But what i truly believe was that if we endure all the pain and fatigue and climb the mountains with perseverance and the right attitude,we will definitely reach the peak one day and enjot the fruits of our labour.the bible also tells us not to worry for tomorrow,for tomorrow will worry for itself.thus,when i am worried,i love to look at the birds as it reminds me that the lord is so faithful and loving that he provides the food and shelter for the birds in the air and surely,our lord's love is so abounding that he will bless us and look after us.thus,ask and it will be given to you.Seek and you shall find.The lord is ever faithful and his love endures forever.

Leave it to God's mighty hands

today,i have a sudden thought,that is we really have to pray for God's will and believe that he have everything mapped out for you.from the time after getting my results for o level and now currently studying a nursing course,i really prayed.I prayed that the lord will guide my way,like a lamp that shines to guide me out of darkness so that i may walk in his will and select his desired path for me.making the decision to nursing may sound rather abrupt and sudden but it was something i was grateful of when i received the letter of getting into the course.i thank God for his plans and went into the course.in it,i met many good friends,male and females from different parts of the world which are very courageous and ambitious people. people who have lofty dreams of being a very caring and thoughtful nurse.i think it was also very good to have exposure and interactions with friends rather than being insular and always staying in the limited boundaries.of course saying that,i have enjoyed my school life all this while and loved the lessons.the teachers there are also very patient and amiable,whom explain every single doubt we had.today there was a sudden change in lab teacher due to some changes in the teacher's schedule and we had another teacher teaching us .though the teacher was a very nice person,i still prefer my previous lab teacher who usually crack jokes and make the lesson very lively and interactive.but it was said that our teacher would be teaching us in the next lesson.also,today,i was in a dilemma after chosen to go for a particular briefing with tells me that i have a chance to excel but needed to make sacrifices and have better time management.though it was very tempting to accept the offer and try,i still have some reservation as i am not certain whether i could juggle my studies,time for resting and my revision for english all together.thus,i was in a dilemma.a tough one.but i remembered to turn to the lord just like what i had done earlier and seek his will for me.i was reading second timothy and it said to be strong that is in the grace of jesus christ and also in chapter 4 the lord reminded us to do your best to come to him quickly.Thus i will pray and turn to the lord for his wisdom and grace.

My supposed meeting with my friends

today is the 24th of june ,which was supposed to be a day of fun with friends.however, we did not meet up successfully.this was because rebekah and tiffany are busy coping with their exams in their junior college.Moreover,annajoy and i have been sick for the past few days because of sorethroat,slight fever and flu.thus, there is only angeline who was free and available.As such, we had to cancel our trip to the zoo.i really hope that we will catch up really soon,probably in september or december ,so that we can find out whether each of us are doing well in our schools.i really have not been catching up with friends in secondary schools since april, when we all go our separate colleges and polytechnic.nyp has been great and though i met many friends in school who are in the caring and helping profession,i still missed the happy moments with my friends in secondary school.lol.it is only when we goes separate ways then we realise how our friendship are so precious,friends.but i believe that the lord will always lead you and bless you always so that we will be still and know that he is God,that his healing hands heal the poor and broken and he is a God with abounding love.

Listening to "I love you" from Alex Chu (korea)

time to catch up with each other friends!

today is the 20th june and it was a day to catch up with my friends!best friends in secondary school !actually this meeting was supposed to be more lively,with at least 4 friends.however,many of them can not make it.so sad. in the end only rachel and annajoy came.rachel is still as lively and cheerful as ever.everytime i see her ,i feel so happy because she is a good listener,confidante and a friend. of course, annajoy came too and we all had fish and co together. it comes along with a maincourse ,soup and dessert. i love the dessert.i find it quite special with the top layer of chocolate and the bottom layer of custard. like always,dining with friends is always a time to share our daily experiences,the ups and down. But i am very glad that all of us had been coping well in the new environment and are adapting well.after lunch aj had to go home because she did not sleep enough and is rather knackered today.thus,the only one left is rachel and i .however,though today many friends did not turn up as promised,we still had a very enjoyable meeting.we walk around somerset ,orchard. firstly we took neoprints even though we had problems locating the place and understanding the japanese words as stated on the neoprint machine.haha,but we still have our photos taken. After that we went for ice cream.which was what rachel missed most.haha.rach has been studying so much that she did not have the time to each icecream.we saw an ice cream which was blue in colour. the blue was rather vibrant and rach ask me to buy it and taste it before she does so that she will not drop dead.lol.but please do not be mistaken.there is no alcohol in it that will cause death.haha.we eventually went to eat chocolate ice cream with cookie dough and then went to shop again.But i am really thankful that i have a chance to meet rachel and eat ice cream cause it was really a rare chance because in reality we hardly can spend time together as we are not in the same school as before.being with rachel also encourages me as rachel also encourage me in what i am doing and her encouragement spurs me to do better.i will continue to pray that the lord will continue to strengthen her in her life and give her the wisdom in her studies so that she can soar even higher.jiayou rachel!And keep in touch my friend!let your cheerfulness continue to be a sunshine in others' life!friends forever!

flu and sick

today, i felt as is my day is like a rollercoaster.this was becausei had two major test in a row.it is kind of draining and sick.when i completed a major test or cross over an obstacles,i still have another.But thank God for blessing me as not all people did well today. I recalled when my friend wore a sullen and rather disappointing expression when things did not go well.then we learnt from the mistakes and try to be careful.i also uttered a silent pray in my heart to God for blessing me through my exam.During one of the exam,i felt that i was about to fail as the teacher gave me chance .i remember being loss for words and stumped when i was asked questions.i also remember that i was slightly anxious that i made careless mistakes that i did not do normally.But nonetheless,i thank God for looking me through and help me pass my exam for skills.After reaching home,i felt as if i was about to collapsed as flu and sorethroat starts to occur and i feel as if my nose was like a water tap and my throat is like a desert longing for water.really feel unwell now. May the lord continue to bless each and everyone in my tutorial group and my skills partner ,xinli.I thank the lord for all he has blessed me today!

committing everything in prayer

Feeling really drained lately,having to complete all projects and roleplay in time and even prepare for the theory test.Finally today, i have crossed another barrier that is my roleplay and powerpoint presentation on positive service encounter for communication skills in nursing. I really thank God for that as i feel much relieved now ,having to settle 50% of the marks for that component. I believe my group members sure felt relieved too.It is because we spent so much time and effort on it.We even did the editing of work more than three times and did many research. Today,i bun up my hair and wore a white dress to imitate a nurse and my friends said they nearly could not recognised me. Anyway, when i was doing the roleplay in front of my class mates i could actually feel my own breathing and my heart palpated violently.But i try to subdue my anxiety and carried on. Thank God,the teacher gave us good feedbacks on our presentation.We have actually seven logsheets,which means there is seven meeting,each for more than one hour at least to the most three hours.Tomorrow,i will need to continue to discuss other projects with my group members.I will also end class at 6.I also thank God for leading me in my biology test . though it was just 50 multiple choice questions,i feel that i will do well for it.During the presentation today,i was actually the one who sum up what all my team members had said about communication and i said that communication is like a bridge which linked people all across the world.However,we have to maintain it before our relationship become tenuous due to the lack in communication.Actually,this part of the project wark was inspired by my chinese essay that i had written during secondary four.But i find it really relevant in our daily life,Isn't it?talking about chinese,i really miss the times when i get to do chinese. I will probably read some chinese books when i am free. Not only that,i also miss the the time i had chinese lessons.By the way,eunice,i have been praying for you for your test and exam.I really do hope you do well too.To annajoy,Thanks for taking the time to read my unpalatable essay which i know is not very well written.I really appreciate it :)May God help us in our everyday life and renew us with his words and strength:)

caring is sharing

"caring is sharing".this was what my friend Amira told me today.To me, we can only know others better when they share.it is only when they share,we can then care,to show concern and love for them.i witness the act of care today.today, when i boarded the public transport, i witnessed how one care can bring a joy to others face.Bringing joy can be simple, it can be as simplistic as smiling to them.Also, it can be giving up your seats to people who needs them. today,i saw a middle age lady giving up her seat to an elderly man who was wobbling. i can see that when she give up her seats,she brought a smile to his face,a vague yet sincere smile.of course, today i had classes which i was partner up with xin li who was a jovial and enthusiastic person.Those who you can say loves to joke and is very expressive in her feelings. classes has been a great learning journey and i learnt to be a serve others whole heartedly.Vivian also went for a jab today for hepatitis B and she looks slightly pale ,probably because she is very busy lately.And Yi ning however,still have not fix her spectacles yet and is still screening in order to read the notes.lol.today,i also ended early like 3pm today and it reminds me of my secondary school days.The days i take bus home with caryn and angeline ,time i stayed back with rachel for cca and the time i studied with anna and tiff. how are you friends? really want to meet all of you out during holidays.i also hope to receive letter from angeline soon!to know whether she enjoyed her course,whether she had loved her school and how she is doing!friends,i really miss you all lots and all the time we spent together!now,i will have another penpals !:)take care my friends! keep in touch!

the lord is ever faithful

When the lord closes a door,he will always open a window. His love remain steadfast and his his promise is everlasting.Just like the rainbow. it has been three weeks since school started and nursing has been fulfilling and satisfactory.there is new challenges awaiting me everyday and new opportunities to learn too. My class mates are also very jovial and friendly people.Though we differs in age,background,country and cultures,we bonded as one. We help each other in learning and converse in several language,mandarin,english and a little malay languages. For me , i am still in the midst of learning malay language through my peers too. I also kept in contact with caryn,rachel,anna joy,angeline, tiffany,beatrice and rebekah. My peers now are also very amiable people,like belle,vivian,xiaoqian and amira and lots more.Classmates are really very fun and enthusiastic people who even wanted to organise class outings and celebrations for birthdays,even class T- shirt and all that.Though we all know that nursing would not be easy,i believe that we will still succeed and become a nurse as long we support one another through this three years.May the lord continue to guide our way,that every step we take,we will honour his name and continue to grow in his love and faith.

thoughts and feelings

It has been a long while since i published another post.previously,i am always studying.then came holiday where my examinations ended and i have more time spending with my friends and family.In the december holidays,i attended a wake of one of the member of the church .although we attended different services in church and i did not have many encounter with her,but eversince the pastor had asked the congregation to pray for her illness,cancer,i have been praying that the lord will bless her and strengthen her in every way.One sunday,i met her after my english service at church.though it was my first time seeing her,i remembered her smile.her smile was a warm and friendly one.even though,she was called home by the lord in the december season,i had 3 learning points.

1) we must always remember how deep is God's love and we must draw near to him.because,in life,nothing is eternal be it(wealth,riches or any other title we receive in earth).but the lord is forever with us and his love will never end .even if we die,and our body seems lifeless but the lord will grant us with an eternal body,one that never malfunctions nor is weak and fragile.and we will be with the lord in heaven:D Forever and ever.

2)we must cherish our each and every day,living life to the fullest.to me life to the fullest means spending more time with friends and family and love them+cherish them.

3)I feel that we must always pray and draw close to the lord and grow in his likeness:D